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Greatest & most Powerful Weapon: words.

感谢

I may come empty handed, and unable to give you what you really want, but my feelings towards you are true. See what you want, Believe in what you want. Do what you want to do. But I’ll be standing here like always, and I just want you to know that there will always be a place for you in my heart because you rekindled a dark heart.

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.

—Chuck Palahniuk (via vacants)

(Source: vacants, via lovealwaysx)

You were 1

Starting tonight.  I’m going to post up quotes once in a while about specific people in my life who I feel like have made major contributions in my life.  It can be big, small, good or bad, you ge the point, but they play a role in my life’s story. I’m not telling how i get these quotes and who they are. That’s the fun part! lol 

I’m going to start with you, because I feel like you are the most recent one who has made a quick, and enormous impact into the way into my emotions, thoughts, and beliefs. atm.

“To keep your purpose & sense of self in the face of great opposition & competition”  

Your journey is spiritual and the challenges are great.  If you are able to find what you’re looking for, you will know in the silence of your heart.  You have perseverance and determination, but sometimes that might get in the way and come hunting you back.  Magnetic and sexy. Sex and pleasures of the world keep them chasing, but do not try to conquer.  You seek the truth and only that.  You are straight forward and to the point, that only by learning the straight thoughts of others, you can be at ease.  You search for perfection, and that itself can do damage.  

You tend to dominate the thoughts and actions of others because you think you know what’s best for them.  

Life is not just the seeking a of a vision; it’s living happily in the now.

摘不到的星星,總是最閃亮的。

溜掉的小魚,總是最美麗的。

錯過的電影,總是最好看的。

失去的情人,總是最懂我的。

我始終不明白,這究竟是什麼道理。

The stars that can’t be picked always shine the brightest.

The fish that slip away are always the most beautiful

The movies that were missed are always the best to watch.

The lover that was lost always understands me the most.

I will never understand exactly what type of logic this is.

(Source: chu-lian)

Can You Hear Me?

Can you hear me?

That’s when I dropped the drum I once beat for you

It was no fairytale

I would’ve taken the Friar’s poison2 but,

I was no Juliet, no love story but,

If I did

Can you hear me?

For once, I felt hopeful,

That destiny was by my side

That the sick masochistic lion can fall in love with the lamb

That love was all that I needed but,

Even so,

Can you hear me?

But love turned me to drip foolish tears

Foolishness, hurts, pains

Weeping alone in my empty hemisphere…

Next to you

But,

Can you hear me?

Even though, Faraway

Sunshine embellishes my darkened eyes

It was not a gleam of hope, but of that translucent shine of your smile

That I look upon, and only that

But still…

Can you hear me?

Realizing….

The best love to give, is not to give any

Even though we see the same star

Breathe the same air, and

Live on this one Earth,

For you, I,

Can’t let you hear me.

As my heart trembles….

(This poem is Still in the works!)

Did you love me?

How you messed up my life,

how you messed up my past,

and how you messed up my soul

A child at 5

Fragile and innocent

How you ripped her soul apart, her life

Tore your own flesh and bone,

Put your filthy hands on the very ones you said you

“loved”

You say you love me

And every time you did

My young heart believes

It struggles to believe

Because if they were true

How beautiful life would be.

“If Mommy and Daddy could finally be together again”

This was only wish

As my minds struggles to forget you, my heart struggles to believe in you

How can a daughter forget her father

Her other half

The ones who helped bring her into this world

And I thank you for that

But let’s just leave it at that

As my heart continues to tremble for the impossible ending

As tears roll down my eyes

As my throat stiffens from the very thought you

I stop

Because as much as I wanted to believe in you

Nothing you can do, can undo

your past

our past

So I continue to say what I always say

How can I ever call you my father….

When father is just a name.

You don’t know me.

You don’t know me

Assuming

because it makes sense

Judging

Because it feels better

Guessing

Because you don’t want to know

When you get to know me

Guessing would be answers

Judging would be understanding

And assuming would not make sense

Because once you do know me

You’ll not know me at all

I love this guy.

(Source: Spotify)